Wait, what? No church clothes??? Well, what are you going to wear to church if it’s not church clothes??
To clarify, I’m not talking about physical clothes. I’m talking about the mask we put on each and every day, even on days when we go to church. When people ask us how we are doing, our automatic response is to say, “I’m fine”, knowing good and well we are falling apart inside. The stress of life is weighing us down.
But we don’t want to burden people with our problems. We put on a facade. We are ashamed to ask for help because it makes us seem weak. We are so concerned with appearances that we bear unnecessary burdens. I know I’ve heard it a thousand times, “Girl, don’t tell everybody your business. Keep your business out the streets.” I’m not ashamed (anymore) to admit that I was not one to share anything that was going on in my life for fear of being judged, talked about, whatever. I didn’t ask people to pray for me because if I did, that meant I didn’t have it all together. Newsflash! None of us have it all together! We are flawed human beings who struggle with doubt, depression, illness, unruly kids, spouses or significant others who can work your last piece of good nerve, folks who depend on you to help them out of a jam, but when you need them, they can’t be found.
Am I on your street? Admit it, this is you! So take off the church clothes! Let others know that you need help and you need prayers. You don’t have to tell exactly what’s going on, or be as specific as you want so that when others go to God on your behalf, our prayers can be specific.
So, in my effort to be transparent, I’m taking off my church clothes and putting it out there that I am not okay. I am struggling with depression, anxiety over health issues, money, and my ministry. I also wonder if I will ever be reunited with my son. I question whether I am really called to do what I believe I was called to do.
I’m tired y’all. This burden is too much to bear alone. Will you pray with me and for me? If you have any prayer requests, please leave them in the comments and I will pray for you.