Why am I so weak Lord? by Marlive Harris

Why am I so weak Lord? by Marlive Harris

Sometimes I wonder how God, who is all powerful and creator of impassable mountains and turbulent seas, created me to be so weak and such a mess at times. No matter how hard I try to be faithful, good, and live according to His word, I mess-up. I don’t mean to, but sometimes my mess-ups are so big (at least they are in my mind) that I feel there is no way God is going to forgive me. In fact, I expect Him to part the clouds at any moment and recall me right up out of here — LOL!

But instead of me going to him with my mess-ups, I get this bright idea that I will fix everything myself. After all God is busy fixing up bigger messes than mine in the world and since this is a mess I created, I know I can handle this. But instead of my mess-ups getting better or going away, I find myself slipping further into frustration and darkness – getting nowhere fast. Have you ever tried to clean up the messes in your life without bothering God? I’m sure you have. So tell me, how well did you do?

Then I read Psalm 103:14, “For he knows how weak we are; he remembers we are only dust (NLT),” and I’m reminded that when God created those mountains and turbulent seas I mention above, he created them perfect and self sufficient — not to need him. And if he wanted me to be self sufficient and independent of him he would have made me a mountain peak or a wave of the sea. Instead he created me weak (with plenty messes) to need and want His soul and His gift of grace for my life!

“It is not that we think we are qualified to do anything on our own. Our qualifications comes from God.” – 2 Cor 3:5 (NLT)

As I study and grow in God’s word, I realize my weak nature is all a part of God’s plan and that the gift of perfection is not intended for me and never will be for me in this life. But the one gift I can count on when I’m  weak is the best gift of all – God’s abundant grace!

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This brief essay above is inspired from Marlive’s reading of Karon Phillips Goodman’s book, Grab a Broom, Lord … There’s Dust Everywhere!

Marlive Harris is the founder and business owner of TheGRITS.com, a reading and book promotion community for readers and writers of all ages. When she is not involved with the daily operations of her web publicity service, she is the Library Ministry Leader at St. Luke Missionary Baptist Church in Humble, TX where Timothy W. Sloan is Sr. Pastor!