Yes, I know we are all dying. When we were born, we came with an expiration date. But when I say I feel like I’m dying, there are many days where I just don’t feel good. I’m overweight…obese to be exact. When I snack, I tend to go for salty, sweet snacks like cookies and chips. Even though there is fruit in the house, those are my comfort foods and what I gravitate towards. You see, I suffer with depression and junk food, especially sweets are my weakness.
I know what I need to do to lose the weight and get healthy, My journey is a start and stop…mostly stopped. Working a full time job, working for myself and writing a book doesn’t leave much time for anything else, including personal time with my husband and family. I know I could make time, especially if schedule things better, but honestly, I’m not motivated and it’s because of the depression. I’m comfortable, but yet uncomfortable, if that makes any sense. I want to change, but I hurt so much when I do try to exercise, I just give up after the first few minutes. I don’t like looking in the mirror because I don’t like what I see. When I do look in the mirror, all I see are the flaws, not what’s beautiful about me. There is beauty in all of us because we were made in God’s image. It’s just a matter of seeing and I don’t always see it.
I’m asking for some prayers, some words of encouragement, somebody to push me! I know I have to do those things for myself, but having good support system is crucial as well.